notes to myself

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Thu, 04 Apr 2013 02:23:35 -0400

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leading-blind-bats: MASSIVE GIVEAWAY! MASSIVE GIVEAWAY! MASSIVE...

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Thu, 04 Apr 2013 02:23:11 -0400

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Thu, 04 Apr 2013 02:23:05 -0400

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Thu, 04 Apr 2013 02:23:02 -0400

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Thu, 04 Apr 2013 02:22:59 -0400

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Thu, 04 Apr 2013 02:22:55 -0400

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Happy happy happy happyyyy

Thu, 04 Apr 2013 02:21:12 -0400

Happy happy happy happyyyy

I have a secret that in many cases, I’m ashamed to say. I don’t know if I want to go...

Sun, 24 Mar 2013 22:23:00 -0400

I have a secret that in many cases, I’m ashamed to say.
I don’t know if I want to go back, and I’m sorry for that.

I am so excited for my future.

Wed, 06 Feb 2013 18:30:57 -0500

I am so excited for my future.

"I would die for you, but I would not live for you."

Fri, 04 Jan 2013 21:46:15 -0500

“I would die for you, but I would not live for you.”

- Read this somewhere today.. don’t remember where… point still remains.

I miss you. I miss you so much. Four months and I honestly don’t know what to do until then....

Fri, 04 Jan 2013 21:45:32 -0500

I miss you. I miss you so much. Four months and I honestly don’t know what to do until then. You are my only friend. The only one I trust. I do not want to wait any longer than I already have…

I have way too much stuff to do right now.

Thu, 03 Jan 2013 23:15:33 -0500

Scrapbooking club (i don’t even like scrapbooking i got forced into this)
365 day art project
DID project
fitness (fuck i have to go tomorrow…)
i volunteer at harmony tomorrow, too
brandon calls every night at 8
chores
way too many chores
and for some reason everyone wants to hang out with me this week???? as if i’m not free every other week but this one.

“It’s a funny thing coming home. Nothing changes. Everything looks the same, feels the same, even...

Wed, 02 Jan 2013 15:30:56 -0500

“It’s a funny thing coming home. Nothing changes. Everything looks the same, feels the same, even smells the same. You realize what’s changed is you.”

-F. Scott Fitzgerald

January 2nd, 2012.

We have been talking for a year now, and I realize, now, all that has changed. When we began talking again, after I moved away, I was in a very rough spot. You did not realize this, I think, but you have helped me greatly. And you, you just noticed something different me. And so we began. Everynight you called. 8 PM. You’d hide in your closet to prevent your dad from hearing you, and i’d turn on my record player to drown out my voice.

And now, I love you. And I cannot see you until March 31st. We have done this wait before, a year ago, but I did not know you as I do now. And since that wait, I have left you Nine times. I have left my family, my friends, I have left you… Nine times. On most days, I believe the only thing i’ve ever came back to was my art supplies and records. I realize now that I was selfish.

I have a lot here. I do. I have friends, and new places to adventure, and the Art Institute is lovely. I have good nights, great, even. My school encourages me to study art. I have a place to clear my head. Or fill it, if needed. There is local music and city parks. And for a few months, I even forgot about home. For just a few months, maybe three or four, I had forgotten.

In a way I am glad that I moved. I love this city, but I will always know where my home is. And I will never stop fighting for it. I have learned what was meant to be found out. I have discovered new things, new passions and desires in myself. I have learned how to be independent, and alone, and how to enjoy the small things.

I want to go home.